when you're not in love

When you're not in love 

and you don't have that deep heartache 

or intense crush 

life is kindof steady and peaceful. 

I haven't felt this way since I was 18. I can go where I want and do what I want to do without hurting anyone. I don't feel that exhilarating high when you have someone close, you let them take your soul and whisper a seal of trust. I don't have that devastating low where you feel like the whole world just collapsed upon you and you can't breath, where nothing feels right. I guess this is that feeling a human would called content. 

PLEASE someone bring me the 90s wrapped in shoelaces 


Go ahead and watch this smashing pumpkins music video for your pleasure. Also I posted the lyrics because. because.  (they are amazing).

And I've known
We're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel
That something has been lost

But please
You know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be perfect
Perfect
Perfect

Strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind
So far, I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was
Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please
You always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be perfect
Perfect

Strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers walk asleep

Perfect
You know this has to be
We always were so free
We promised that we'd be
Perfect
Perfect