A tepee for A bedroom

Yesterday I did laundry 

I washed the fabrics (from D.I.) that I wanted to sew with 

and when I brought them home they were still a bit wet 

...so I decided to hang them up in my room. 

After hanging them it started to look so cool 

that I began to build a tent for my bed. 

*I did this while I was on the phone with my really awesome friend Olivia Dudding.

*here's a tiny peek, it was hard to get good pictures.

(you may just have to come over and hang out in it with me)

 

  

*here's an extra view (at night) from the side...

I like that I have space within space 

my bed feels like a large cave that I can snuggle up in.

SO now I have a 'bed-tent'

plus my room smells like fresh laundry 

BUT I don't have any sewing fabric...

Maybe I'll take it down one piece at a time to work with.

Food Corner

As promised, 

Neela had me over for some vegetarian Indian cooking.

She is so amazing and talented. 

I was very impressed.

*this is tomatoes with mushrooms, onions and possibly other yummy things

*mix it all together!

*as Neela was blending she was pushing down the ingredients with her hand, 

I'm glad she switched to a wooden spoon because moments later this occurred...

*Neela taught me, as many do, that it's all to taste. 

She added this and that after the basics were compiled.

*mmm spices

*currrrrry

*RICE!

 *Kyle came over to join us

*the finished product!! So much food, so Very GOOD.

Here is some deliciousness I made yesterday:

whole wheat tortilla, pesto, peppers, onions, mushrooms, spinach, egg whites, sprouts, and pine nuts

I'm starting to learn 

that I love food! full of flavors and creativity. 

The idea of cooking and knowing certain things about it is becoming really exciting.

I hope that I can learn to venture and experiment on my own

but first I need to continue to practice the basics.

*p.s. thank you Danielle McLaughlin for sending me the vegetarian soup recipe! 

I'm going to grab the ingredients next time I'm at the grocery store, I'm so excited! 

*p.p.s. I may have a sinus infection and am going to see the doc friday. 

TMI? sorry. Sicknesses should not fester this long.

a vulnerable open book

I have been very stressed in the last little bit of my life,

considering what to do next, what the game plan is.

I still haven't got it figured out in any tangible way

but I did find a goal, 

(to grow and experience things

and maybe eventually) become wise.

I have always admired the adventurers,

the ones who take risks and become more themselves by focusing on others.

I have realized how selfish I have been worrying about my own future 

or even who to be friends with or what to wear.

I want to put off this. 

I want to be me.

Without a care of the worldly things and invest in my insides.

Eating well is something I have been working on and I have noticed it's pay offs 

but I would like to work on my mind and breath, my vision for the future.

I do not want to get bogged down by other people's dreams and visions

accept that as that person and not take on their personal ventures.

What do I want to experience?

Who do I want to be?

After all this is my life and 'you only live once'

another great saying: 'I'm not getting any younger'

So for all those worries and dreads about finding a soul mate...

That will happen when I become the person that I want to be

even if it is a soul friend

People come in and out of our lives as a catalyst for change 

and lately I have lost track of where I am and where I want to go

Where do I want to go...

I know that I want to go places and help people.

I can start small.

To be wise,

would be a beautiful thing

something that you don't obtain

something that you are always working on

and progressing towards

like anything in life

We should stop and look around to catch the beauty and live in the moment 

but not to stagnate and surrender.

I have many goals and dreams before I became more absorbed in having someone significant

I don't think I need to let that go
but it wouldn't be healthy to find someone right now
because they wouldn't be for me

they would be for the old me

the shedding skin

Age is what scares me, if I could stay young forever, in all honesty I would probably take it.

I have overlooked the beauty of the soul 

and have morphed into concern about appearance, 

maybe because it's what I am attracted to

I need to change my very own mindset 

and get back to looking at the individual inside 

and not the paint on the canvas.

So this is me, making a pact with myself

to not worry about looks, others judging me, or the common desire to find someone

but to discover beauty within myself and to do the things that I have dreamed of

to reach a potential of existence where love radiates through me for everyone and thing

I only then will achieve patience, kindness, understanding, putting off and away the desire for outward beauty
focusing on my inwards.

When life punches you in the face, your lip bleeds.

*mudbison & *ferocious oaks

My weekend was splendid,

we traveled down to Provo and attended a show at Velour,

where I saw many friends...

*this is Mudbison

*Shawna was the driver of this escapade. 
She did some intense voyaging picking up people and dropping them off, 
I'm very proud of her.
She is beautiful.

*so is Elyse, who I met this night, we became fast friends.

*my beautiful friends Michael Braman and Emily Moffett

*Merch

*Dustiiiie

*Light

*Babieeees

My dear friend Daniel Barnes!

Em and I met him through hitchhiking in Provo.

He has a very beautiful soul.

*ferocious oaks, a beautiful band with lovely members

hello dear friends...

I'm not sleeping.

Just contemplating a hair cut.

The first thing I decided to make with my sewing machine was a YOYO button barrette.

dun dun dun nAAAAA

 my attire is frumpy grandma, as I like to call it, but there is that yoyo dilly dally in my hair.

I hope everyone had a good weekend,

you deserved it